|Excerpts from Starstruck UK channel 4 four
part television series
To tongue or not to tongue
From all Id heard - (I thought) that someone will come in and say, "OK,
were gonna go this far in with the tongue and then pull up and
No one says that! So if youve got two people who dont know and if you
dont know each other well enough, its a very embarrassing thing to say,
"Oh, Im going to be using my tongue. Daphne
" You dont
know to say that so it can be a little bit -- stilting.
Part 4 -
Auditions and unemployment
I learnt quite early on - you walk into an audition, and this is my least favourite thing
that directors do - is you sit down and they just go (here Rufus folds his arms and just
stares blankly, see the video capture to the right) and stare at you like that -
.I remember these things, where even now, my shoulders go up - and
its my cooperation in my humiliation is what makes it so terrible. You so wish
-- (finger pointing, muttering) but you never do. I always would try to
They say its not personal. It IS personal. Its YOU theyre rejecting.
Theyre not rejecting the - you know - the, the craft that youre in,
theyre rejecting YOU. And your face and your funny shaped head and your big arse -
and - and your walk, everything about you is whats not getting the job.
You hear these actors saying, "Oh when Im unemployed Id learn a poem a
day, learn a speech a week and go jogging". I didnt - I sat on my
brothers sofa, living off him, smoking butts out of ashtrays, and eating potato and
salad cream sandwiches - and got fat and sat there complaining. And Id like to
think Id do that again (laugh) if I got unemployed now.
The big time
Personally Ive been through the experience - "theres something enormous
about to happen to me" SO many times and, hey, here I still am, that now when it
happens it feels like nothing. You just dont pay attention.
Its very confusing - and very dangerous for your mind to be involved like that. I
mean youre an actor, especially when youre young and youve maybe done a
film for the first time. The people slap you on the back and say, "This is the big
one, sonny," Its very exciting when you hear it, but its just as likely
that youll do a film that will come and go and youll be recognized on the tube
for a week, and then youre faced with a taxi driver saying, "Well I
avent eard of you. Can you tell me what youve done?"
I had this trailer which was ENORMOUS - ridiculous, ridiculous, stupid Val
Haylen you know, "15 naked people in a -----" trailer. And I walked in a
started laughing, and someone said (hands on face with a concerned look) "Is there a
And I go "No, it's just - "
"It's the trailer isn't it? Is it ok?" "Yeah, it's all right."
It had a TV and a video and a bathroom and a bedroom and a bar. And suddenly
I see how it happens that people get difficult. The next job I did I had a tiny
trailer and for a split second I caught myself thinking, "does this mean the don't
really think I'm - as - good - or does that mean they don't - " And I
thought, "Jesus, shut up!"
I was on Broadway, you know, having the time of my life, and I came back to
London. I suddenly got scared that people would think I'd changed. And I met
all my friends in one night, terrifying, all at the same time. My brother, agents
and all had a kind of get-together to welcome me back. And I was so paranoid that
people would be going "you never used to speak like that." What really
happened, it wasn't a conscious thing. My brother had to call me aside after a couple of
(Whisper) "Rufus, you didn't use to speak like Bob Hoskins." And I went,
He said, "You didn't used to be Cockney." And what I'd been doing is I was
(at this point Rufus goes into an exaggerated Cockney accent, very funny)
"New York's all right, like, but if you're a geezah - " And I was using
this full "trying to be down to earth Londonah" and completely forgot who I was
in a effort to let people know that I was down to earth and normal.
video captures by Ginny